Monthly Archives: June 2012
It’s funny how the Lord works sometimes. We’re just going along a path, in the direction we think we ought to and then BAM! He totally turns things around and pushes us in a direction we never even knew existed.
That’s pretty much what happened to me this summer. I was simply minding my own business at Starbucks, working my little heart out, (and enjoying it a lot for that matter) wondering what the Lord had in store for me in the coming year. Next thing I knew I was quitting a great job, letting go of all my “security,” and heading to northern Iowa to work at a camp. WHAT THE HECK?!
I really had no idea what I was doing, and I still have no clue what I’ve gotten myself into, but I’m certain this is where I’m called to be. It’s been so encouraging to me to be using my gifts like this again, even though it’s in very different capacities than I’m used to. Here are my 3 main jobs this summer:
Mentoring: I get to live in a house with 11 other young ladies as we serve together in various capacities. Since I am the oldest in the house (by several years), there is a natural opportunity for me to be an encouragement and hopefully an example of what it looks like to be a woman passionately chasing after God.
Publications: I have the pleasure of editing (and partially authoring) the daily devotional booklets which will be sent home with campers at the end of their session. In addition I have been given the responsibility of photographer and producing the camp newsletter. Fun stuff!
Music: Providing worship sessions for camps, staff, team members, family reunions, and Sunday services. This has been both challenging and most exciting for me. I love being involved with music again, and I have been completely blessed to see how it has opened the doors for vulnerability, restoration, and unity among everyone who hears.
So what’s next?
You might be wondering what I’m going to do AFTER summer is over. Don’t worry, you are not alone in that wondering…I’m asking myself the same thing. I’ve been praying that the Lord would use these next couple months to steer my heart in the direction that’s most pleasing to Him. We’ll see what happens 🙂
This summer I am working at Twin Lakes Christian Center in Iowa, as the worship leader for all their events. It’s sort of a long story as to how I ended up here so I’ll share that later. For now though…
We’ve been studying the book of 1st John for staff training, and also the person of John as a disciple of Christ. In diving into the gospel of John it is interesting to me how John refers to himself as “the disciple whom Jesus loved”. He never calls himself anything else, and he always makes sure he mentions the fact that Jesus loved him, even if it means awkwardly attaching it to the end of a sentence. I assume by not mentioning himself by name, John is trying to show humility, but I have often wondered whether John was boasting a little bit in Jesus’ favor, or if he was trying to remind himself of Jesus’ affections. Today I’m realizing perhaps neither of those things are true. Maybe John simply couldn’t think of a better way to think of himself. He was merely a follower of Christ…and he was loved by the One he followed.
When I read the accounts of John from other gospels, it’s almost as if John is competing for Jesus’ favor. He wants to be the one honored by Jesus, he wants to be constantly praised by Jesus, and “in the loop” with Jesus’ plans, as if he were entitled to that sort of treatment from Jesus. But maybe by the time John writes his own gospel, he’s realized that he isn’t entitled to anything. Maybe he realizes he had the joy of being one of Jesus’ closest friends, and was witness to all these great miracles and deep moments with Christ, simply because Jesus loved him. Perhaps John came to the understanding, to which we should all arrive eventually, that we are not allowed the privilege of knowing Christ because we are worthy of it. Instead it is because Christ loves us.
So really, aren’t we all just disciples whom Jesus loves?